Typically, I hate sappy Christmas stories. They are all so formula and the image is always so IN YOUR Face. I don't even like listening to sad Christmas songs on the radio. Crappy stuff happens all the time, but people only bother to notice around this time of year. Gratuitous tear jerking just isn't my thing. Those Chicken Soup for the Soul books were really just a marketing scheme between the publishers and the manufacturers of Kleenex. If you made it through any of those books without crying, you might feel like an emotionally dead zombie.
This story is a little different, though. If you've already read it, that's fine. But if you haven't, just read through it once. Not to show what a good person you are, or to encourage you to run out and buy a puppy for a stranger, or anything like that. Read it because the story is something that might have happened to you, and it is wonderful to revisit this type of wonderful good-feeling-ness.
'A Slice of Life'
Jean heaved another world-weary sigh. Tucking a strand of shiny black hair behind her ear, she frowned at the teetering tower of Christmas cards waiting to be signed. What was the point? How could she sign only one name? A "couple" required two people, and she was just one.I admit, I cried like a baby while I was listening to this. I was in the choir loft, awaiting my turn to sing our selection of songs when, THUMP I get hit in the chest with this story that was so obviously aimed directly at me. I can see myself as the new orphan, feeling as I never quite had what others did, and that I would never own what so many around me took for granted. The tangible items - clothes, books, toys, friends - those were there, but not the same. The intangible items - love, comfort, security, self esteem, - again, I knew what they should be but I didn't truly own any of them, not for a long time.
The legal separation from Don had left her feeling vacant and incomplete. Maybe she would skip the cards this year. And the holiday decorating. Truthfully, even a tree felt like more than she could manage. She had canceled out of the caroling party and the church nativity pageant. Christmas was to be shared, and she had no one to share it with.
The doorbell's insistent ring startled her. Padding to the door in her thick socks, Jean cracked it open against the frigid December night. She peered into the empty darkness of the porch. Instead of a friendly face -- something she could use about now -- she found only a jaunty green gift bag perched on the railing. From whom? she wondered. And why?
Under the bright kitchen light, she pulled out handfuls of shredded gold tinsel, feeling for a gift. Instead, her fingers plucked an envelope from the bottom. Tucked inside was a typed letter. It was a...story?
The little boy was new to the Denmark orphanage, and Christmas was drawing near, Jean read. Already caught up in the tale, she settled into a kitchen chair.
From the other children, he heard tales of a wondrous tree that would appear in the hall on Christmas Eve and of the scores of candles that would light its branches. He heard stories of the mysterious benefactor who made it possible each year.
The little boy's eyes opened wide at the mere thought of all that splendor. The only Christmas tree he had ever seen was through the fogged windows of other people's homes. There was even more, the children insisted. More? Oh, yes! Instead of the orphanage's regular fare of gruel, they would be served fragrant stew and crusty, hot bread that special night.
Last, and best of all, the little boy learned, each of them would receive a holiday treat. He would join the line of children to get his very own....
Jean turned the page. Instead of a continuation, she was startled to read: "Everyone needs to celebrate Christmas, wouldn't you agree? Watch for Part II." She refolded the paper while a faint smile teased the corner of her mouth.
The next day was so busy that Jean forgot all about the story. That evening, she rushed home from work. If she hurried, she'd probably have enough time to decorate the mantle. She pulled out the box of garland, only to drop it when the doorbell rang. Opening the door, she found herself looking at a red gift bag. She reached for it eagerly and pulled out the piece of paper.
...to get his very own orange, Jean read. An orange? That's a treat? she thought incredulously.
An orange! Of his very own? Yes, the others assured him. There would be one apiece. The boy closed his eyes against the wonder of it all. A tree. Candles. A filling meal. And an orange of his very own.
He knew the smell, tangy sweet, but only the smell. He had sniffed oranges at the merchant's stall in the marketplace. Once he had even dared to rub a single finger over the brilliant, pocked skin. He fancied for days that his hand still smelled of orange. But to taste one, to eat one? Heaven.
The story ended abruptly, but Jean didn't mind. She knew more would follow.
The next evening, Jean waited anxiously for the sound of the doorbell. She wasn't disappointed. This time, though, the embossed gold bag was heavier than the others had been. She tore into the envelope resting on top of the tissue paper.
Christmas Eve was all the children had been promised. The piney scent of fir competed with the aroma of lamb stew and homey yeast bread. Scores of candles diffused the room with golden halos. The boy watched in amazement as each child in turn eagerly claimed an orange and politely said "thank you."
The line moved quickly, and he found himself in front of the towering tree and the equally imposing headmaster.
"Too bad, young man, too bad. But the count was in before you arrived. It seems there are no more oranges. Next year. Yes, next year you will receive an orange."
Brokenhearted, the orphan raced up the stairs empty-handed to bury both his face and his tears beneath his pillow.
Wait! This wasn't how she wanted the story to go. Jean felt the boy's pain, his aloneness.
The boy felt a gentle tap on his back. He tried to still his sobs. The tap became more insistent until, at last, he pulled his head from under the pillow.
He smelled it before he saw it. A cloth napkin rested on the mattress. Tucked inside was a peeled orange, tangy sweet. It was made of segments saved from the others. A slice donated from each child. Together they added up to make one whole, complete fruit.
An orange of his very own.
Jean swiped at the tears trickling down her cheeks. From the bottom of the gift bag she pulled out an orange -- a foil-covered chocolate orange--already separated into segments. And for the first time in weeks, she smiled. Really smiled.
She set about making copies of the story, wrapping individual slices of the chocolate orange. There was Mrs. Potter across the street, spending her first Christmas alone in 58 years. There was Melanie down the block, facing her second round of radiation. Her running partner, Jan, single-parenting a difficult teen. Lonely Mr. Bradford losing his eyesight, and Sue, sole care-giver to an aging mother....
A piece from her might help make one whole. -- By Carol McAdoo Rehme
The second main character, Jean, is someone I also know well. Feeling overwhelmed, stretched thin, unable to gather the heart to do things that I usually love to do; seems to be a normal day around here. My reasons are much, much different that hers, but I can still feel it. Knowing that you will not be able to do everything, you are less and less inclined to do anything at all. Helplessness becomes lead blocks tied to your feet, making any forward movement more difficult by the moment.
Lately, my life has been a bizarre mixture of these two faces. One minute, I see that I have nothing and I am so weary. After that, I find something that might potentially bring everything back into focus, but it slips away like mist. I want to have the bare minimum that ANYONE should have - food, shelter, work, security, health. I don't have those. I picked up and moved 75 miles away from anything I knew looking for those things. I am here and I still have none of them. But, while listening to this story, I realized, I have a lot more than I was realizing. A whole orange made of the slivers gathered from everyone else? Looking in my living room, I can clearly see that right under my tree.
So many people have given us "just a few things, they aren't much" but they all are, all piling up next to each other under and around the tree. A few filled stockings with lip gloss and bath bubbles, pieces to make trinkets and jewelery . It already looks like Santa's been here and we haven't even put our gifts under the tree yet. It isn't strangers and passing acquaintances who have made this possible. It is the family we choose and the family that chooses us. Friends who have been friends so long, they are morphed into Aunts and Uncles have given us pieces and kits so we can give gifts we were not able to afford. One sister is giving to another a thing she already owns, but knows her sister would love more. She wraps the item in a box and puts it under the tree. WP, hand making special and individual gifts for each grandchild, using the precious resources of his fixed income to make sure there will be at least a few more things under the tree Christmas morning. Our dear friends the Pastor and his Wife gifting the girls and I with tickets to Holiday in the Park with the youth group, and making sure she could give us snacks and drinks without it once feeling like a charity offering. The Wife, again, going beyond what she should have to, invites the family over and pulls out her collection of flutes and pipes and recorders and makes sure each girl leaves with one.
It already looks to me, that I have a beautiful, whole orange, juicy and fragrant, just waiting for Christmas morning. All of the gifts given for my girls make me realize that even if not one more thing shows up, there will still be the amazing feeling of Christmas morning sharing and joy.
DH is now inspired. He has begun sewing and jewelery making, and crafting. His amazing talents are being put to use in order to make the items that so many people have asked of him over the past few months, that he hasn't had the time to get to. He's also giving himself permission to make for himself the things that he has been gathering materials for, but just hasn't been able to make the time do. Allowing him that time (with as few interruptions as possible) is my gift to him.
Another slice of the orange.